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dedication

When I was in High School I thought the kids that ran cross country were absolutely crazy. But now that I go too all of Sharon's meets I see how dedicated her and her teammates are. I see the utter strength  that it takes and I really have a respect for them. Also it's really sweet to see how much support they offer each other; they are truly a team. Consequently I still believe they are absolutely crazy yet dedicated.

Also if only I was mean enough to show some of their facial expressions while they are running. I certainly have plenty of blackmail if any of these kids come at me. winky face! ha!

favorites

I am very indecisive and I always have a hard time picking my favorite anything. But I know for sure that you two are some of my favorite.

fall

This weekend it really felt like fall. This weekend it really felt cold.
It was sorta perfect.
The cold sometimes is such a good and new contrast to the past heat.
Its sorta a fresh start and a new scenery & I'm thankful for it.

moving forward

 I woke up the other day feeling rather frustrated. this is something that happens to me a lot lately. I just am not happy where I am in my life, feeling stuck. I just want something so much more, something more fulfilling...I want to take more risk, meet new people, and feel better completely...
so then I decided at that moment I would apply to BYU-I. This is something I can honestly say I never saw me doing....but for some reason its the only thing that seems right. I'm praying that things go right and that I will be able to attend in the winter.
I pray pray pray...................
So this is me making plans and moving forward. is it strange that since I sent my application an overwhelming amount of happiness has filled me......

family pictures!

one time my family decided to take family pictures.
and that one time everyone thought we looked like the Kardashians.
Holla holla.
love these people. oh so much!

sunday drive

 When I get home from church I like to go on drives. These drives mostly include listening to the The Civil Wars, laughing with Nicole, watching the the breathtaking autumn sunset & a iphone photo shoot. its delightful.

puppy love

gavin has to be the sweetest.
he loves a long cuddle
he loves when I rub his belly
& I just know that when I take time out of what I think is a busy schedule to be with him he loves it.
and I love it.
this is a reminder to spend more time with your dog, they love you more than anything.

taught without teaching

when i feel like i am lacking things i have had planned for my future i think about my cousin josh who has down syndrome (my cousins and I also call it "get down syndrome")... he really has had little choice and chance for where his future can take him. while i have every choice and chance. he has taught me so much and im sure he doesnt even realize it. im so thankful for him.

walks

last night we went on a walk. as we walked I watched the old man who lives across from me working diligently on his garden. I see him outside a lot. working away at his beautiful growth. he in a way is an inspiration, strange i know. but even at his old age he still cares and puts so much work into something that will bless his family, its just so much different than running down to the grocery store. Its work, and i respect him so much more for it.

oh people watching. you make me realize so much. maybe one day i will get enough guts to ask if i can take a picture of him with his sun dryed skin and buttom up shirts.