I woke up the other day feeling rather frustrated. this is something that happens to me a lot lately. I just am not happy where I am in my life, feeling stuck. I just want something so much more, something more fulfilling...I want to take more risk, meet new people, and feel better completely...
so then I decided at that moment I would apply to BYU-I. This is something I can honestly say I never saw me doing....but for some reason its the only thing that seems right. I'm praying that things go right and that I will be able to attend in the winter.
I pray pray pray...................
So this is me making plans and moving forward. is it strange that since I sent my application an overwhelming amount of happiness has filled me......

family pictures!

one time my family decided to take family pictures.
and that one time everyone thought we looked like the Kardashians.
Holla holla.
love these people. oh so much!

sunday drive

 When I get home from church I like to go on drives. These drives mostly include listening to the The Civil Wars, laughing with Nicole, watching the the breathtaking autumn sunset & a iphone photo shoot. its delightful.

puppy love

gavin has to be the sweetest.
he loves a long cuddle
he loves when I rub his belly
& I just know that when I take time out of what I think is a busy schedule to be with him he loves it.
and I love it.
this is a reminder to spend more time with your dog, they love you more than anything.

taught without teaching

when i feel like i am lacking things i have had planned for my future i think about my cousin josh who has down syndrome (my cousins and I also call it "get down syndrome")... he really has had little choice and chance for where his future can take him. while i have every choice and chance. he has taught me so much and im sure he doesnt even realize it. im so thankful for him.

walks

last night we went on a walk. as we walked I watched the old man who lives across from me working diligently on his garden. I see him outside a lot. working away at his beautiful growth. he in a way is an inspiration, strange i know. but even at his old age he still cares and puts so much work into something that will bless his family, its just so much different than running down to the grocery store. Its work, and i respect him so much more for it.

oh people watching. you make me realize so much. maybe one day i will get enough guts to ask if i can take a picture of him with his sun dryed skin and buttom up shirts.

lets swim

summer time is always the best time.

time seems endless.

i find myself appreciating every moment of it.

wishing i could jar all the happiness up. and open it when the cold comes again.

but for now. back to the pool.

summer trip to washington

Moments from a week in Washington 

 

cheese burger heaven on the 4th of july

 my niece kylie and her friend jocelyn

 ky doing the catwalk. get honey child.

 my sister is awesome and she makes pretty food like strawberry shortcake

 freedom and a cast yo.

 we love america

 we love hugging people

 sparklers are all the rage. 

 crazy but wonderful 4th! So glad i got to spend it with my washington fam!

 I got to take pictures of sean. lets just say that human is very strange. 

 this human, also know as my sister. is freakin gorgeous. get out of here jenj.

 my sister's family and I froze to DEATH. at the beach. at least we got to eat overpriced corn dogs!

 my gorgeous niece running and sorta not wanting to smile at the camera.

 baby lincoln stealing everyones heart.

 SHE IS NOT HIS MOTHER! ha just his aunt.

 OBSESSED with this child. also my sister made his bow tie. she is ridic.

i honestly almost died when i saw this field. no but seriously.

 hi. your pretty sister. meow.

 FAVORITE HUMANS

my nephew dylan. or i sometimes call him daffodil. he's handsome.

Overall it was a crayyyy crayyy time filled with a lot of laughter and happiness. I am so blessed to be able to go see them in the summer!

Now all I have to wait for is my sister to come and see me in a month! Good lord I'm excited!