I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.

Thinking is never a good thing with me though.

I think about my life and where I am.

I contemplate if this is really the place I need to be.

I cry because of my confusion.

I never saw me being eighteen and not going to my dream school.

   Not living in dorms with my new best friends.

   Not meeting people.

   Sucking at every class.

Today after all that thinking I feel a calm over me.

The weird part is that calm came right after I said a prayer.

I know that my Heavenly Father, wants me to succeed.

He has given me awesome opportunities to do so..

And this is the time in my life when I can screw up, and fix anything.

I can change something if it feels wrong.

If I hate my major I can change it.

If I hate my attitude I can change that.

If I hate anything I have the power to try to make things better.

Todays change is to make the best of the college I'm at.

Tomorrows change will be to look forward to a place I will truly be happy at...Oregon.

I am also thankful for the one constant in my life.

My faith.

even if my home, family, friends, or scenery change. 

My faith & my church are always there.

Love..

A confused college girl.

first week of college REVIEW!

^first day look^

Dude college is legit.

I really find the first week of anything awkward though.

So I am going to write an Awkward & Awesome about college!

{Awkward}

• Hiding in the bathrooms, for lets say a good ten minutes, so you are not forced to have to be, that person, who gets to class super early.
• Thinking you can wear wedges to college. Realizing later however, that, oh when you wear wedges its sorta hard to walk, and you then trip, you then lose everything in your hands, fall on your lovely bottom, in front, of hey one thousand people. Then everyone begins to stare, and no one begins to help you..and you know everyone is just thinking...stupid freshman.
• Dressing really nice, only to realize people confuse you with professors.
• Drawling a picture in art, of the most beautiful, Jenjtyler, and having your professor, lovingly, tell you you CAN'T draw.
• Reading books, in my car, cause I cant remember where the darn library is.
• Having a international student, ask you where to place his bike for safe keeping, umm, lets see here, you could put it on the bike holder thing?, oh you don't think thats a good idea...the student then talks to me..I then ask him several times to repeat himself, I get frustrated and walk away...oh snap, he is in my art class. oh hey there you little international student, did you find a good place for your dang BIKE?
• Having a class with a kid from my high school, oh hey...Don't sit next to me, and act like we are best friends..We didnt talk in high school, what makes you think we are about to become buddies in college.

{Awesome}

• Art class, yes, that makes me lame!
• Being released by your professor..like 20 mins early!
• Intense people watching.
• Sitting in hallway, just minding my own business. AND dang, major hottie walks in, he is carrying a satchel..I swoon, and he does a dang double take on me. (note to self..stalk the hottie with a satchel)
• MAJOR HOTTIES CARRYING SATCHELS & WEARING V-Necks!
• Freaking AWESOME professors!
• Having a fresh start. Nobody knows anything about you..you can be whoever you want to be.

Hi kidds, its been a while

This past month my life has changed drastically. Like think night to day. Ya, that crazy man.

My dreams of being this fearless College student in a new city, completely changed.

And to be honest I went crying to my daddy. Who had no objection to my persistent request to return to the nest.

So I am home.

I am sorta mad at myself.

I don't ever get to see my beautiful sisters face daily.

We don't get to chat about everything daily.

No more lunch dates downtown.

No more redecorating.

No more beautiful french braids.

But I am content with the life I now have here.

I have my bestest friend ten minutes away.

And my other best friend is only hours away. I think I will get used to road trips.

Along with my big move back to Texas, I am now attending a University not to far from my house.

I am so proud to say that I, B, am attending a University.

I still live at home, so I am having a hard time meeting people.

But I really love my Major, and all, yes all, of my professors are awesome.

Did I mention my campus is so pretty? I seriously cant wait to have some time to capture some pictures of it.

It has such a vintage and clean look.

I love how everyone walks around in a bustle and is carrying their over the shoulder satchels.

I love just people watching on my long walks from class to class.

It sure passes the time away.

It is all surreal. I love it.

Oh and I finally have internet! I cant wait to catch up on here!